The fear of God, should be the center of your being

                              The fear of God, should be the center of your being. 

In the fear of God, it should be the center of your being. Fearing the Lord leads to understand, that he needs to be the center of your being at all times. Not everyone knows that he's lives, he became sin, he who knew no sin. To be honest, I've been in and out sometimes with my relationship with Jesus. I just came to realize at 20 years old, I was sexually abused at the age of 8. I went to talk with my father last year, he was not on my side. I exposed something dark, he didn't want to talk about it. He wanted to keep it a secret. Thinking it wasn't a big deal to be honest. I was in complete shock with his response. I thought he would have advocated for me and brought it to the light and came around a different way. He wanted to take his sisters side, instead of his daughters. He wasn't protecting, something that God gifted him to love, protect, and grow in the Lord. He was dark, nothing that I could control, Jesus is in control. 
Verse: Ephesians 5:11  Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.

Jesus impacts

How many times has Jesus impacted your life? 

Well, for me I couldn't really say just one. I believe he could have an impact on us each and everyday. He's all around us, in all he's created in this earth. 

For me there are at least 2:

1: My seizures: At the age of 13 months. The doctors found that I had epilepsy. I had many changes in medications between the age of 13 months to 6 years old. I was seizure free for 13 1/2 years. I had to be put back on my medications. But, he has healed me from them apart from having to be back on them. 

Matthew 4:24 "News about him spread all over Syria, and
people brought to him all who were

ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain,
the demon-possessed, those having seizures,

and the paralyzed; and he healed them.

2: The sexual abuse: I was sexually abused at the age of 8, by an aunt of mine.
In 2004, before my 3rd grade year, I was sexually abused along with my sister.
My father chooses to believe its normal, that it happens to everyone.

I've tried to explain to him many of times, but in reality it was a dead end

there. God wants me to expose them.
He wants me to go to court and expose the evil shames.

Ephesians 5:11-13 "Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but

rather expose them. It is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret.

But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is

illuminated becomes a light."

A power statement I feel.

Disease,
Death,
Depression,

Healthy,
Hope,
Happiness,

You will have to overcome your disease to become healthy,

You will have to overcome death by being in prayer and have hope in the waiting room,

You will overcome depression with the smallest amount of happiness,

Words to describe God?

I'm reading a book by Max Lucado called Traveling Light. It started to get t me a lot especially right now I'm going through some family matters heavy ones. Burdens really if you ask me and what it talks about taking our trash and baggage with us wherever we go, i really understand the cost in a bit of a way to follow Jesus. It's very hard for me at times to trust, God is with me always. I've only read 2 chapters of this book and it already has opened my eyes.

It left me with one question: what words would you describe God?
1. Faithful
2. Great
3. Able
4. Father

I didn't have any other words to describe God, I know there are plenty more but that's what I came up with.

Quick note to self.

Some people rather live perfectly in sin, rather than come and need help in the light.

30 Days of Spiritual Value Day 1: Beauty

Day 1: Beauty

Breaking
Every
Addicition
Understand
Tithe
Yourself

Break earthly habits, enjoy the stillness of Jesus.
Every moment give thanks, no matter what the circumstances.
Addiction to drugs, the only addiction you should have is Jesus.
Understand his way for your life, because it is best.
Tithe your energy, time, and money with Jesus.
Yourself will become one with Jesus.

B: John 15:5 - “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

E: Matthew 27:2 -So they bound him, led him away and handed him over to Pilate the governor.

A: Mark 10:5 - “It was because your hearts were hard that Moses wrote you this law,”Jesus replied

U: Hebrews 7:8 -In the one case, the tenth is collected by people who die; but in the other case, by him who is declared to be living. 

T: Pslam 25:3 - No one who hopes in you will ever be put to shame, but shame will come on those who are treacherous without cause.

Y: Acts 4:20 - 20 As for us, we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard.”